Life Question #2

Having social anxiety can hinder your ability to interact in casual conversation and can make it difficult to even interact with those who you may consider close to you. Do you tell the latter that despite being the few people you feel comfortable around they still make you anxious or do you forever keep to yourself?

 

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What Have I Been Doing [LIFE, BLOGGING, MOVIES & TV]????

Studying…….

Yes my first semester as a sophomore in university has begun and I have thus become far less involved with the WordPress community than I would like to be. I’ve been a little anxious just knowing that I’ve been missing out on the opportunity to expand 4therace, connect with my current followers,as well as new ones, and read other blogs. Well I’m trying my best to jump back into this community I hold so dearly as best I can. Before I (hopefully) return back to a casual blogging schedule, I wanted to make this post in order to catch everyone up with what I’ve been up to.

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MY FUNKO POP COLLECTION!

If Fabrice is going to be seduced by consumerism it’s because miniature figures of his favorite characters in pop culture exist. My Funko Pop collection began last christmas when I bought myself Captain Marvel while also purchasing Maz Kanata and Jyn Erso for my younger sister as a christmas. Now my squad has six more additions, small yes, but heading towards an inevitably larger number soon.

Going from left to right I’ve got Snap Wexley (an X-Wing pilot from Force Awakens), my ideological grandfather Bernie Sanders, my favorite Harry Potter character Bellatrix, Naruto (check why I love him here), Elliot from my favorite series Mr.Robot, my favorite character in Game of Thrones Arya Stark, and one of my favorite heroes from Marvel Comics Captain Marvel!

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The Three Things That Shaped Me [Part 2]: Harry Potter

In America, pop culture is the stable of our society. Movies, television, books, music etcetera, form friendships, they build traditions, they unite families, and they, often, define who we are.

The Three Things That Shaped Me is a small series I came up with where I wish to share the impact that three of my favorite fictional universes have had on my life and learn if any series, in any form, has done the same for you.

In Part 1 I discussed why I am forever indebted to Naruto – read more on that here -now in Part 2 I wish to share an extremely ubiquitous portion of my childhood, and most millennials, Harry Potter.

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I’m 19-years-old and I’m Scared of the Movies…?

Yesterday I turned 19-years-old, really not that old, but still older than I’ve ever been before. Every year I face this sense of melancholy after being shocked at how close adulthood is approaching – it’s practically here now. It isn’t until a couple years later, through the ability of hindsight, that I come to realize how young I really was. When I turned 14, and I didn’t think that was really young until I was 17, and now that I’m 19, 17 seems really young as well. Maybe it’s my anxiety that results in me constantly worrying about how I will be ‘later’ and how I was ‘then’ rather than focusing on how I am ‘now’.

This time around my biggest fear about the days after September 2nd, 2017 is my ability to immerse in my favorite form of escapism, movies. At a young age, heroes like Harry Potter, Luke Skywalker, and even freaking Naruto – who were all older than me – lost me in their fictitious worlds, encouraged me to be kind-hearted, a hero, and most of all never give up. I couldn’t help be feel like my imagination and connection with fiction would weaken as I grow older, and it freaking scared the hell out of me. Stories and movies are my everything and I feel like, somehow, I’ll let go of them over time.

But today I say FUCK THAT!  I’ll only be 19-years-old 364 times until I fully depart being a teenageer and then it’s off to the twenties.  So this year, officially, I’m done with going through this feeling of pensive sadness and just learning to just live in the now and appreciate the blessing that is life. There is no reason to fear getting older. My imagination, as long as I live, will never fade away. And movies will always be movies. Happy belated to me!

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2 Year Anniversary on WordPress!

It seems like every month this summer was a milestone here on 4therace. June saw my 3000th visitor and July was a record setting month for visitors, views and likes on my blog as well. Today I am happy to say that I have been a blogger on WordPress for exactly 2 years now!

4therace has also changed drastically in these 2 years. I’ve changed my theme twice and expanded the content of my site to include entries on, music, anxiety, politics and even started to write a couple of short stories.

I thought it’d be really fun to share the first post I wrote The Pessimist’s Optimistic Way to Obtain World Peace and my latest post Life Question #1.

My favorite short story I wrote Why Can’t They Hear Me Screaming?

And the most important post I ever wrote The Greatest Person in the World Sat Next to You

Once again, I want to thank all my followers and visitors who took the time to read the content I work really hard to create on 4therace! 

 

The Three Things That Shaped Me [Part 1]: Naruto

In America, pop culture is the stable of our society. Movies, television, books, music etcetera, form friendships, they build traditions, they unite families, and they, often, define who we are.

The Three Things That Shaped Me is a small series I came up with where I wish to share the impact that three of my favorite fictional universes have had on my life and learn if any series, in any form, has done the same for you.

Some of them taught me how important the imagination is, they strengthened and created bonds with people, and  others, such as Naruto, I am forever indebted to for teaching me the greatest  life lessons.

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July was a Record Setting Month on 4therace!

Wow! 577 Views. First off I would like to deeply thank every single person who took time out of their day to read the ramblings of an 18-year-old nerd. A lot of readers here on 4therace leave extremely enthusiastic and positive comments that build my confidence as both a person and aspiring writer. All my viewers encourage me to keep writing and, even if it may be implicitly, follow my dreams so I am deeply thankful to each and every one of you.

On top of this, I had a record setting month for visitors (385), likes (139), and comments (36)! These analytics aren’t jaw dropping but do show that that my audience is progressively increasing. I wish to be a long-term blogger, and perhaps even make this an occupation one day.

As of now, however, I’d just like to thank, once again, all those who took time read, like, comment and follow my blog!

Have a blessed week everyone!

Blog Milestone! 3000+ Views

Today I realized that my blog has reached over  3000 views, 3 030 to be exact, in the (nearly) 2 years it has been running! This is so incredible and I’m extremely thankful to all of those who took the time to read my posts. WordPress is a community that I have a deep love for. In the real world, people may often neglect the opinion’s of others based on their status – be it social or financial. Some may refuse to hear the words of others simply because of their race/ethnicity, gender, sexuality, religion, and  or nationality. But in this digital world, everyone has a chance to speak up and share their thoughts. There are no boundaries. There is no prejudice. WordPress is a place where truly everyone is equal. We are all bloggers. We all started with 0 followers, 0 views, 0 likes and 0 comments. I am so grateful to be part of a community that, unknowingly, is so open, kind and motivating to one another. Thank you all for the views and I can’t wait for the journey ahead here on 4therace!

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A Letter to My Anxiety

Dear Anxiety,

I hate you. A “Hello” is a “Hello”. Nothing more. Nothing less. But to you it has an underlying meaning. A meaning that you will not desist from unraveling until you have driven me to the point of insanity.

The world does not revolve around you but for some reason you believe that everyone is always watching. No one is, but you assure me that they are. Always. I feel their nonexistent glances everywhere I go.

Anxiety, because of you I cannot breathe. When I should feel safe, I instead feel the world crumbling down on top of me. I stay still but my heart races as if I just ran a mile. I might have friends but you think they all hate me. And if you think so, I think so. I loved myself but you told me I wasn’t worth anything. You hate me? Well, I hate you too.

People are everywhere but you won’t let me talk to them. The hardest part is that no one knows that I have to climb a mountain just to speak. Sometimes I summit, but you aren’t that generous. You start to control my body.  I become the puppet and you the puppeteer. I’m awkward enough but you have to let the world know don’t you? Do they see me? Do they notice? Do they hate me. Am I… and your vicious cycle continues.

Anxiety, you’re there almost all the time. Almost all the time. So when you loosen your grasp for that one instant and give me just a little air, life is wonderful. I feel love, and joy, and happy. Because of the lows I feel with you I humbly recognize all the beauty in life.

Anxiety, you destroy me, you eat me alive, you tear me apart but I must say you are a blessing not a burden. You teach me that life is often filled with pain and sadness so that I can hold on to the few, yet precious moments.

Anxiety, I used to hate you but now I love you. I wished you were gone but I want you to stay now. In the most awful way, you managed to teach me that life is a gift.

Yours Truly,

The Anxious Host

 

This post was heavily inspired by the rapper Logic’s song Anziety where he delivers a speech that ensures a hopeful future to fans/listeners who suffer of the disorder. 

If you suffer from an Anxiety, know that you are not alone…