I’m 19-years-old and I’m Scared of the Movies…?

Yesterday I turned 19-years-old, really not that old, but still older than I’ve ever been before. Every year I face this sense of melancholy after being shocked at how close adulthood is approaching – it’s practically here now. It isn’t until a couple years later, through the ability of hindsight, that I come to realize how young I really was. When I turned 14, and I didn’t think that was really young until I was 17, and now that I’m 19, 17 seems really young as well. Maybe it’s my anxiety that results in me constantly worrying about how I will be ‘later’ and how I was ‘then’ rather than focusing on how I am ‘now’.

This time around my biggest fear about the days after September 2nd, 2017 is my ability to immerse in my favorite form of escapism, movies. At a young age, heroes like Harry Potter, Luke Skywalker, and even freaking Naruto – who were all older than me – lost me in their fictitious worlds, encouraged me to be kind-hearted, a hero, and most of all never give up. I couldn’t help be feel like my imagination and connection with fiction would weaken as I grow older, and it freaking scared the hell out of me. Stories and movies are my everything and I feel like, somehow, I’ll let go of them over time.

But today I say FUCK THAT!  I’ll only be 19-years-old 364 times until I fully depart being a teenageer and then it’s off to the twenties.  So this year, officially, I’m done with going through this feeling of pensive sadness and just learning to just live in the now and appreciate the blessing that is life. There is no reason to fear getting older. My imagination, as long as I live, will never fade away. And movies will always be movies. Happy belated to me!

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July was a Record Setting Month on 4therace!

Wow! 577 Views. First off I would like to deeply thank every single person who took time out of their day to read the ramblings of an 18-year-old nerd. A lot of readers here on 4therace leave extremely enthusiastic and positive comments that build my confidence as both a person and aspiring writer. All my viewers encourage me to keep writing and, even if it may be implicitly, follow my dreams so I am deeply thankful to each and every one of you.

On top of this, I had a record setting month for visitors (385), likes (139), and comments (36)! These analytics aren’t jaw dropping but do show that that my audience is progressively increasing. I wish to be a long-term blogger, and perhaps even make this an occupation one day.

As of now, however, I’d just like to thank, once again, all those who took time read, like, comment and follow my blog!

Have a blessed week everyone!

Close Encounters of The Third Kind [Film of the Week #3]

WOW! Last week I watched some pretty incredible movies so I had to think a lot about what this week’s Film of the Week would be before deciding on Steven Spielberg’s 1977 classic Close Encounters of the Third Kind. The other four films I watched last week are listed below and I highly recommend each one:

  • The Gift
  • My Cousin Vinny
  • Her  (read my review here)
  • Dog Day Afternoon – features a brilliant performance from a young Al Pacino

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Expressionless after watching Pierrot Le Fou [pour la première fois]

I watched Jean-Luc Godard’s Pierrot le Fou pour la pour la première fois and I absolutely loved it. My feelings can only be expressed through this compilation of breathtaking moments. 

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