My Favorite Album of 2017: 4 Your Eyez Only – J. Cole

Beautiful, insightful and heart breaking are three words I would use to describe J Cole’s best album 4 Your Eyez Only. Paralleling his life with that of his late friend, Cole tells a story which explores the immense societal burden that is placed on the black man and the realities of being born into a system that will never benefit the Black American.


It doesn’t surprise me that an album that fully recognizes the Black struggle, touches on mass incarceration and institutionalization has gone unnoticed by The Grammys. The awards show found this conversation in Kendrick Lamar (whom I love) and are prompt to nominate the rapper for each one of his albums. Does this committee fully understand the words of Kendrick and Cole? Probably not. I fully believe the Grammy committee nominates Kendrick for his growing mass appeal which, consequently, brings more ratings and money to their show. Of course an album like 4 Your Eyez Only which is far from a cash grab, wasn’t made for mass appeal but created in honour of another human being’s life would be glanced over by the ‘money driven, viewer hungry Grammy Awards Show.

As long as I live, I will not let a project as touching and as moving as 4 Your Eyez Only fade away from human memory. It’s a story about love, pain, and life. It is undeniably my favorite album of 2017.


Star Wars in Relation to My Life


On December 17th, 2015 I received my first admission decision from a university I vividly pictured myself living and learning in. They didn’t want me. Rejection hurts bad as a seventeen year old and still does two years later at the age of nineteen. Admittedly, I sobbed a little that night scared that I wouldn’t be anywhere in the Fall of 2016. A day later I saw the highly anticipated  Force Awakens with around 15 people. For about 2 hours my anxieties and worries of the real world disappeared. I left the theater elated but still scared of the future. Later on I applied to several other schools and hoped for the best. That frightened 12th grader to the left is me.

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What Have I Been Doing [LIFE, BLOGGING, MOVIES & TV]????


Yes my first semester as a sophomore in university has begun and I have thus become far less involved with the WordPress community than I would like to be. I’ve been a little anxious just knowing that I’ve been missing out on the opportunity to expand 4therace, connect with my current followers,as well as new ones, and read other blogs. Well I’m trying my best to jump back into this community I hold so dearly as best I can. Before I (hopefully) return back to a casual blogging schedule, I wanted to make this post in order to catch everyone up with what I’ve been up to.

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The Three Things That Shaped Me [Part 2]: Harry Potter

In America, pop culture is the stable of our society. Movies, television, books, music etcetera, form friendships, they build traditions, they unite families, and they, often, define who we are.

The Three Things That Shaped Me is a small series I came up with where I wish to share the impact that three of my favorite fictional universes have had on my life and learn if any series, in any form, has done the same for you.

In Part 1 I discussed why I am forever indebted to Naruto – read more on that here -now in Part 2 I wish to share an extremely ubiquitous portion of my childhood, and most millennials, Harry Potter.

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I’m 19-years-old and I’m Scared of the Movies…?

Yesterday I turned 19-years-old, really not that old, but still older than I’ve ever been before. Every year I face this sense of melancholy after being shocked at how close adulthood is approaching – it’s practically here now. It isn’t until a couple years later, through the ability of hindsight, that I come to realize how young I really was. When I turned 14, and I didn’t think that was really young until I was 17, and now that I’m 19, 17 seems really young as well. Maybe it’s my anxiety that results in me constantly worrying about how I will be ‘later’ and how I was ‘then’ rather than focusing on how I am ‘now’.

This time around my biggest fear about the days after September 2nd, 2017 is my ability to immerse in my favorite form of escapism, movies. At a young age, heroes like Harry Potter, Luke Skywalker, and even freaking Naruto – who were all older than me – lost me in their fictitious worlds, encouraged me to be kind-hearted, a hero, and most of all never give up. I couldn’t help be feel like my imagination and connection with fiction would weaken as I grow older, and it freaking scared the hell out of me. Stories and movies are my everything and I feel like, somehow, I’ll let go of them over time.

But today I say FUCK THAT!  I’ll only be 19-years-old 364 times until I fully depart being a teenageer and then it’s off to the twenties.  So this year, officially, I’m done with going through this feeling of pensive sadness and just learning to just live in the now and appreciate the blessing that is life. There is no reason to fear getting older. My imagination, as long as I live, will never fade away. And movies will always be movies. Happy belated to me!

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2 Year Anniversary on WordPress!

It seems like every month this summer was a milestone here on 4therace. June saw my 3000th visitor and July was a record setting month for visitors, views and likes on my blog as well. Today I am happy to say that I have been a blogger on WordPress for exactly 2 years now!

4therace has also changed drastically in these 2 years. I’ve changed my theme twice and expanded the content of my site to include entries on, music, anxiety, politics and even started to write a couple of short stories.

I thought it’d be really fun to share the first post I wrote The Pessimist’s Optimistic Way to Obtain World Peace and my latest post Life Question #1.

My favorite short story I wrote Why Can’t They Hear Me Screaming?

And the most important post I ever wrote The Greatest Person in the World Sat Next to You

Once again, I want to thank all my followers and visitors who took the time to read the content I work really hard to create on 4therace! 


The Three Things That Shaped Me [Part 1]: Naruto

In America, pop culture is the stable of our society. Movies, television, books, music etcetera, form friendships, they build traditions, they unite families, and they, often, define who we are.

The Three Things That Shaped Me is a small series I came up with where I wish to share the impact that three of my favorite fictional universes have had on my life and learn if any series, in any form, has done the same for you.

Some of them taught me how important the imagination is, they strengthened and created bonds with people, and  others, such as Naruto, I am forever indebted to for teaching me the greatest  life lessons.

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A Letter to My Anxiety

Dear Anxiety,

I hate you. A “Hello” is a “Hello”. Nothing more. Nothing less. But to you it has an underlying meaning. A meaning that you will not desist from unraveling until you have driven me to the point of insanity.

The world does not revolve around you but for some reason you believe that everyone is always watching. No one is, but you assure me that they are. Always. I feel their nonexistent glances everywhere I go.

Anxiety, because of you I cannot breathe. When I should feel safe, I instead feel the world crumbling down on top of me. I stay still but my heart races as if I just ran a mile. I might have friends but you think they all hate me. And if you think so, I think so. I loved myself but you told me I wasn’t worth anything. You hate me? Well, I hate you too.

People are everywhere but you won’t let me talk to them. The hardest part is that no one knows that I have to climb a mountain just to speak. Sometimes I summit, but you aren’t that generous. You start to control my body.  I become the puppet and you the puppeteer. I’m awkward enough but you have to let the world know don’t you? Do they see me? Do they notice? Do they hate me. Am I… and your vicious cycle continues.

Anxiety, you’re there almost all the time. Almost all the time. So when you loosen your grasp for that one instant and give me just a little air, life is wonderful. I feel love, and joy, and happy. Because of the lows I feel with you I humbly recognize all the beauty in life.

Anxiety, you destroy me, you eat me alive, you tear me apart but I must say you are a blessing not a burden. You teach me that life is often filled with pain and sadness so that I can hold on to the few, yet precious moments.

Anxiety, I used to hate you but now I love you. I wished you were gone but I want you to stay now. In the most awful way, you managed to teach me that life is a gift.

Yours Truly,

The Anxious Host


This post was heavily inspired by the rapper Logic’s song Anziety where he delivers a speech that ensures a hopeful future to fans/listeners who suffer of the disorder. 

If you suffer from an Anxiety, know that you are not alone…