The Three Things That Shaped Me [Part 1]: Naruto

In America, pop culture is the stable of our society. Movies, television, books, music etcetera, form friendships, they build traditions, they unite families, and they, often, define who we are.

The Three Things That Shaped Me is a small series I came up with where I wish to share the impact that three of my favorite fictional universes have had on my life and learn if any series, in any form, has done the same for you – my readers.

Some of them taught me how important the imagination is, they strengthened and created bonds with people, and  others, such as Naruto, I am forever indebted to for teaching me the greatest  life lessons.

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A Letter to My Anxiety

Dear Anxiety,

I hate you. A “Hello” is a “Hello”. Nothing more. Nothing less. But to you it has an underlying meaning. A meaning that you will not desist from unraveling until you have driven me to the point of insanity.

The world does not revolve around you but for some reason you believe that everyone is always watching. No one is, but you assure me that they are. Always. I feel their nonexistent glances everywhere I go.

Anxiety, because of you I cannot breathe. When I should feel safe, I instead feel the world crumbling down on top of me. I stay still but my heart races as if I just ran a mile. I might have friends but you think they all hate me. And if you think so, I think so. I loved myself but you told me I wasn’t worth anything. You hate me? Well, I hate you too.

People are everywhere but you won’t let me talk to them. The hardest part is that no one knows that I have to climb a mountain just to speak. Sometimes I summit, but you aren’t that generous. You start to control my body.  I become the puppet and you the puppeteer. I’m awkward enough but you have to let the world know don’t you? Do they see me? Do they notice? Do they hate me. Am I… and your vicious cycle continues.

Anxiety, you’re there almost all the time. Almost all the time. So when you loosen your grasp for that one instant and give me just a little air, life is wonderful. I feel love, and joy, and happy. Because of the lows I feel with you I humbly recognize all the beauty in life.

Anxiety, you destroy me, you eat me alive, you tear me apart but I must say you are a blessing not a burden. You teach me that life is often filled with pain and sadness so that I can hold on to the few, yet precious moments.

Anxiety, I used to hate you but now I love you. I wished you were gone but I want you to stay now. In the most awful way, you managed to teach me that life is a gift.

Yours Truly,

The Anxious Host

 

This post was heavily inspired by the rapper Logic’s song Anziety where he delivers a speech that ensures a hopeful future to fans/listeners who suffer of the disorder. 

If you suffer from an Anxiety, know that you are not alone…

 

Anziety- Logic [Song of the Week #2]

Logic isn’t just one of my favorite rappers/artist ever, but one of my favorite people ever. Born as Sir Robert Bryson Hall III, Logic grew up in Gaithersburg, Maryland where drugs, crime and gang life where all apparent in his household. With an abusive mother and  an absent father who was addicted to crack, Logic found an escape through rap music. The list of all the terrible things he witnessed is endless, yet he came out as a well spoken, inspirational figure who represents Peace, Love and Positivity. He never really made music that explicitly boosted the morale of people but unintentionally has changed the lives of so many, including myself. In his third studio album Everybody, Logic raps at the perspective of multiple people aiming his targeted audience at, well, Everybody! No song resonated with me as much as Anziety, yes Anziety not Anxiety, where Logic not only raps for sufferers of the disorder but at the perspective of the disorder as well. 

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Black Mirror’s San Junipero: Questioning Love, Life & Death

If you haven’t watched or even heard of Netflix’s Black Mirror, I highly suggest that you give it a glance. Each episode of creator Charlie Brooker’s anthology series features it’s own cast and different story which explores the negative implications of technology use in modern society. Some entries are insights to what the future of technology may become, such as “The Entire History of You” which sees the invention of a product that records every moment a person has have ever experienced, whilst other episodes may simply display how technology can be used to blackmail people.  The show aims to be extremely thought provoking and prides itself a little on how much it can frighten its viewers once the credits are cued. Although all episodes effectively do so,  I believe none have done this as successfully as the fourth entry in the show’s third season “San Junipero“. At the core, it’s a love story  following two young women, Yorkie (Mackenzie Davis) and Kelly (Gugu Mbatha-Raw), who meet in the party city. In true Black Mirror fashion, San Junipero quickly evolves into something much greater than just a love story and begins to explore the concept of life after death.

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1 Year Anniversary on WordPress!

Exactly 1 year ago I joined WordPress and embarked on my mission to share my deepest thoughts with the world, or at least the finite amount of people of WordPress. Featuring pieces on racism, frequent analysis of film and television, some reviews on novels and couple of short stories, I am so proud of how diverse this blog has truly become.

I thank all my followers for continuously inspiring me to write, tells stories and share a piece of myself on 4therace.

The Greatest Person in The World Sat Next To You

If I had talked to the one guy on the sitting on the sidewalk today, could I have made him happier? If I gave that one lady a smile on the subway, could I make her more confident? If I held that door for her, would she feel like she mattered?

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We are all uNbreakABLE

I live overseas and Netflix is now available worldwide in over 190 countries. So…..I’ve had two Christmases in the span of 3 Weeks? Yep, just checking. Anyways. I have conformed to the America social norms and binged watched a series for my first time. This show was the comedy show Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt starring Ellie Kemper. It is extremely stupid yet so entertaining, excruciatingly vulgar yet well written and dumb yet hilarious. Despite its idiocy, the show has surprisingly taught me a number of life lessons! The most important one was in the very beginning of the show when Kimmy shares her “10 seconds at a time rule”.

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The Pessimist’s Optimistic Way to Obtain World Peace

People of our societies often view world peace as the solution to all world issues. “The end of wars will result in the end of poverty, inequality, pain, suffering, hunger, conflict”.  Etcetera, etcetera, etcetera. Frankly there is no possible way to prove that the end of wars would initially bring about world peace mainly because world peace is simply not attainable (sorry). Peace cannot exist with the countless contraries in our society

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